Today was supposed to be a great day. Today was going to be a good day to get things done, and get my fiancé help.
Instead, I will walk you through how my day went from doing really well to way worse then I ever expected.
We had a doctors appt today, for me to get a refill of my prescriptions to helping my fiance get some answers about his anxiety. We got that all taken care of, prescriptions filled, great McDicks coffee, and walked around Costco looking at things we wished we could afford but know that we can't. That was a big deal for the both of us. With him being at home for the kids, and getting himself squared away so that he is able to go back to work at some point, things are very tight.
For the past few months, we have both been combating his son's mother. Not a pleasant person I can tell you. He would tell me time and time again, that she's unreasonable about things, and that he is very selfish. Well. I can tell you, all of it turned out to be true. So, on top of having both of my kids who are special needs, I've also got a step son, named Sandro. He is a cutie pie, and very socially awkward, but only becuase of his Social Commication Disorder. He is with us 50% of the time, and loves being here. But if you were to ask his mother, he hates me and my house. Sandro goes to school downtown Ottawa, and we live in the West end of Ottawa, Barrhaven to be exact. We've been asking his mother to change our schedule to help Sandro get to school on time. On a good day it takes 45 minutes to get Downtown to his school, never mind a day with accidents and snow. We've asked for her to take him all week and we get weekends. She says NO. We've asked to take him for the week and she gets weekends. She says NO. We've called the school to try and get special transportation, and we've been told no. Today, was not a good day. I even emailed the school, and told them that my son Jacob has been getting a minivan to and from school and maybe just maybe Sandro could be driven too. They said NO at the school. I can't help but feel completely hopeless and defeated. What makes me angry though is that his mother is being so unreasonable about this situation, and Sandro suffers for it. He doesn't do okay in school because of the changes and talking to my fiance, it's almost like what are we doing to him to make it worse. It's so very sad quite frankly.
And then I think about my situation, with my ex husband. And I think, what the hell does she have to be angry about? She has a break for an entire week, when I DO NOT, ever. She gets child support, when I have gone 3 years without it, and struggling mentally and emotionally and physically. What the hell does she have to complain about? She's got it made. She's very lucky, she has a father of her son like she does because I can tell you from my experience it could be very bad.
It breaks my heart that another mother could be so calice and cold, and not think about what would be the best for her own son. If I had to make that decision, I would have to. But, I have my children all the time.
All of this causes such strain between me and my fiancé, and quite honestly its tiresome. I feel like we get things moving in the right direction and then we get hit with something else, and we can't combat things at all.
On top of all of that, we had a special visitor from CAS. To preface this story, lets go back about two weeks, and find another incident with the Spawn of Satan. Anyone remember that kid? Well, summer is over and hes back. So, he decided to try and break Jake's arm, while they were at the park, and then to chase him home and scare the crap of out him. No wonder my kid wants to snap 99% of the time, its people like this. Jake got home and told us what had happened. Then SOS and his friends kept ringing our door bell, and then running away. Then SOS took my sons bike helmet, and broke it and left it on my front porch. Can you imagine how angry I was at how absolutely crazy this all was? And coming from a 10 year old idiot??? So, yet again I called the Police. They went over and spoke to the SOS and his wonderful mother of the year, and he said he broke my son's helmet, and she never offered to pay for the broken helmet. Do you not have a nice bone in your body?? What is wrong with you? Clearly you are raising a Hellion and don't give two effs about it.
So........cue CAS worker.
Door bell rings, and my fiance tells me some woman is at the door, and she wants to talk to me. I have no idea that this is happening, and she tells me that she is from CAS and that she wants to talk about lack of supervision. OMG. My head was going to explode. An anoyomous caller(AKA mother of the year) called and told them that my kids are running amuck about the neighbourhood, and that neither me or Johnson are watching them. Also, that my son is awful, and that they go to the park unsupervised all the time. My head was close to exploding. I told her to come in and I would tell her the story about the kid across the street bullying my kids, and how the mother is clearly trying to do the same. The comment was, "oh we don't like going to Police Officers houses, because we figure they know better." SILENCE came from me for once. How dare this woman or anyone else think they know my child?? SERIOUSLY??? I've told people time and time again, I am very diligent about my children, and I am doing the best I can with what I have. I told her the rest of the incidents involving the SOS, and his mother. Part of me wanted to rip someones head off, the other part of me expected this to happen. Only becuase it seems like everyone knows how to parent these days.
And now it's night time, and my fiance is angry with me again, and frustrated with our entire situation, and I don't even know what to do at this point. I can't even begin to tell you the range of my emotions running through my body from rage to feeling betrayed, to sadness for my step son. I don't even know where to begin with my emotions, and I am a mess. I haven't cried at all, and I don't even know if I want to. What can I say.
We shall see if things get any better.....I am not optimistic.
Instead, I will walk you through how my day went from doing really well to way worse then I ever expected.
We had a doctors appt today, for me to get a refill of my prescriptions to helping my fiance get some answers about his anxiety. We got that all taken care of, prescriptions filled, great McDicks coffee, and walked around Costco looking at things we wished we could afford but know that we can't. That was a big deal for the both of us. With him being at home for the kids, and getting himself squared away so that he is able to go back to work at some point, things are very tight.
For the past few months, we have both been combating his son's mother. Not a pleasant person I can tell you. He would tell me time and time again, that she's unreasonable about things, and that he is very selfish. Well. I can tell you, all of it turned out to be true. So, on top of having both of my kids who are special needs, I've also got a step son, named Sandro. He is a cutie pie, and very socially awkward, but only becuase of his Social Commication Disorder. He is with us 50% of the time, and loves being here. But if you were to ask his mother, he hates me and my house. Sandro goes to school downtown Ottawa, and we live in the West end of Ottawa, Barrhaven to be exact. We've been asking his mother to change our schedule to help Sandro get to school on time. On a good day it takes 45 minutes to get Downtown to his school, never mind a day with accidents and snow. We've asked for her to take him all week and we get weekends. She says NO. We've asked to take him for the week and she gets weekends. She says NO. We've called the school to try and get special transportation, and we've been told no. Today, was not a good day. I even emailed the school, and told them that my son Jacob has been getting a minivan to and from school and maybe just maybe Sandro could be driven too. They said NO at the school. I can't help but feel completely hopeless and defeated. What makes me angry though is that his mother is being so unreasonable about this situation, and Sandro suffers for it. He doesn't do okay in school because of the changes and talking to my fiance, it's almost like what are we doing to him to make it worse. It's so very sad quite frankly.
And then I think about my situation, with my ex husband. And I think, what the hell does she have to be angry about? She has a break for an entire week, when I DO NOT, ever. She gets child support, when I have gone 3 years without it, and struggling mentally and emotionally and physically. What the hell does she have to complain about? She's got it made. She's very lucky, she has a father of her son like she does because I can tell you from my experience it could be very bad.
It breaks my heart that another mother could be so calice and cold, and not think about what would be the best for her own son. If I had to make that decision, I would have to. But, I have my children all the time.
All of this causes such strain between me and my fiancé, and quite honestly its tiresome. I feel like we get things moving in the right direction and then we get hit with something else, and we can't combat things at all.
On top of all of that, we had a special visitor from CAS. To preface this story, lets go back about two weeks, and find another incident with the Spawn of Satan. Anyone remember that kid? Well, summer is over and hes back. So, he decided to try and break Jake's arm, while they were at the park, and then to chase him home and scare the crap of out him. No wonder my kid wants to snap 99% of the time, its people like this. Jake got home and told us what had happened. Then SOS and his friends kept ringing our door bell, and then running away. Then SOS took my sons bike helmet, and broke it and left it on my front porch. Can you imagine how angry I was at how absolutely crazy this all was? And coming from a 10 year old idiot??? So, yet again I called the Police. They went over and spoke to the SOS and his wonderful mother of the year, and he said he broke my son's helmet, and she never offered to pay for the broken helmet. Do you not have a nice bone in your body?? What is wrong with you? Clearly you are raising a Hellion and don't give two effs about it.
So........cue CAS worker.
Door bell rings, and my fiance tells me some woman is at the door, and she wants to talk to me. I have no idea that this is happening, and she tells me that she is from CAS and that she wants to talk about lack of supervision. OMG. My head was going to explode. An anoyomous caller(AKA mother of the year) called and told them that my kids are running amuck about the neighbourhood, and that neither me or Johnson are watching them. Also, that my son is awful, and that they go to the park unsupervised all the time. My head was close to exploding. I told her to come in and I would tell her the story about the kid across the street bullying my kids, and how the mother is clearly trying to do the same. The comment was, "oh we don't like going to Police Officers houses, because we figure they know better." SILENCE came from me for once. How dare this woman or anyone else think they know my child?? SERIOUSLY??? I've told people time and time again, I am very diligent about my children, and I am doing the best I can with what I have. I told her the rest of the incidents involving the SOS, and his mother. Part of me wanted to rip someones head off, the other part of me expected this to happen. Only becuase it seems like everyone knows how to parent these days.
And now it's night time, and my fiance is angry with me again, and frustrated with our entire situation, and I don't even know what to do at this point. I can't even begin to tell you the range of my emotions running through my body from rage to feeling betrayed, to sadness for my step son. I don't even know where to begin with my emotions, and I am a mess. I haven't cried at all, and I don't even know if I want to. What can I say.
We shall see if things get any better.....I am not optimistic.
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